Wednesday, November 21, 2007

You don't understand izzit?

I don't know how to put it. I think I'm going insane. The wedding is only 9 days away. My preparation is done mostly, so that's not the problem anymore. The main problem comes in when it involve family members. If others were to make fuss, even a small tiny one. I would just ask them no need to come (not in the face la, of course). For example, Hubs requested two of his friend to sing a song or two during the dinner. But they come up with extra idea. Since we have asked them so many weeks ahead, they should have prepared the songs and memorize the lyric even in their dream. But no, they need to have a tv like karaoke system, whereby they can refer to the lyric. This is NOT a karaoke room thingy, they should be like a pro. So instead, we'll just cancel their part.

The problem this time involved my own family members. We had arranged a family photography session at my bridal house prior to our dinner. And we (5 of us) will do their make up there as well. As the date is auspicious, there will be many brides doing their make up for dinner also. So in order to accommodate, the our sales assistant has arranged to start doing our make up as early as 12pm. I admit it's a lil early but their priority is on the brides. So I have to be understanding too. If I can be understanding, why can't my family do the same? Why have they to make my life difficult? They demand to have it at 2-3pm. No, they don't wanna do it so early cause by dinner time, their make up will be ruined. Then what do they expect? For other bride to do it so early and had theirs ruin instead? As usual, my sister manage to squeeze me till I suffocate. She sounded so concern on mum's make up, " You don't understand, izzit?". Everyone thinks for themselves but have anyone think of me? Do I have to please everyone but myself? Don't they see that I, as a bride is quite stress up with the wedding? That I, as a bride is more tensed than anyone. That I, as the bride will want to look more stunning than all others?

I have no one to turn to but pour my heart out here. If I were to tell Hubs, he'll be angry again. Cause this is not the first time he saw how my family makes me sad and hurt. Not to say they don't love me or I hate them, just that sometimes I really don't know how to handle this kind of situation. They have helped me a lot. At this time, I'm so lost.

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